So I told you before about having book anxiety. That was basically me freaking out at the realization that I will never read ALL THE BOOKS. But now what I want to talk about is the book anxiety I get when I finish a book.
So I finish reading something, doesn't matter whether I loved or hated it, and I have to figure out what to read next.... and I freeze. I get this really weird feeling like I'm almost scared to pick. Why?? Because I'm afraid that I'm going to make the wrong choice. There are all these books that I'm supposed to read. Whether it be that I got it from a publisher and I feel obligation to read them, or it's just books by authors that I LOVE and feel like I need to read them, or books that are popular in the YA book world and I feel like I need to read them to keep up-to-date.... there are SO many!
So I go over to my shelf:
And then I think, well what ebooks do I have?
And then I start thinking if there was anything new that came out that might trump something that has been sitting on my shelf waiting to be read...
And really I'm just super scared that the book that I'm going to pick is going to let me down :(
I never used to be like this. Before I blogged I just went to the library, picked a book, and read it. And 9 times out of 10 I ended up really liking it. Now.... I don't know!! I guess I'm more picky. And I don't want to end up reading the SAME book over and over. And the more I read, the more books start feeling really similar to me. It feels like I have to dig and dig to find those few gems. AND I know that's not even really true. There are SO many good books out there!! SO MANY. So why have I become like this?? Scared to pick a book... scared I won't like it and will be wasting my precious reading time... scared that if I pick the wrong book it will make me miss out on the ones I would really enjoy in the end???
I tried making a list in order of books to read... but that didn't last long because I have to be in the mood to read a certain book. And new books are constantly jumping up and distracting me.
I just want to go back when picking books didn't make me feel crazy. And I'll probably never be like that again :(
Do you guys ever feel like this?? Can you stick to a reading schedule, or do you feel like you have to be in the MOOD for a certain book?